I was recently chosen to do a video shoot for Callavida. How fortunate am I? How lucky. I was excited!
I was also super nervous-even though I can do videos on the fly for my Instagram account this was different. I get so much anxiety around planned attention on me. This is my introverted side.
The time came to meet at a beautiful botanical garden, as I had asked to shoot everything outdoors. We met at 7:30 am, and by 11:00-ish a few things started to happen…
I became so freaking hot.
From that I became so freaking sweaty my face started to develop a “sunkicked” glow.
I realized having breakfast would have been a good idea.
Any opportunity a bug had to bite me, it would. Nothing I could do in a knee length dress.
Overall, I was feeling the exhaustion of the work we put in, as he warned me I would.
But shortly after all of this hit we arrived at an area of the garden that had patches of plants specifically grown to attract one of my most cherished creatures on this planet.
There were mostly monarchs, and a few adorably petite, lightly colored ones. I stood there completely enchanted.
And here is the part where I connected with my POP…my point of peace.
Remember how I felt? Toasty, itchy, shiny in a bad way, and slightly lightheaded from having not eaten. All those feelings were at the forefront of my mind, and my skin. But when I stood there in front of these freaking awesome symbols of growth I suddenly became very present. It felt like when I was kid and would lie on my stomach with a book. There was this touch of magic.
For the next 15 minutes or so, as my friend took video of them I slowly made my way around. I giggled at the ones that flew so suddenly close and away, as if gently jolted by my being an obstacle of flight. I stared as closely as I could with every fiber of my attention at the ones landing on the dusty yellow parts that continuously provided them a sweet feeding. This fed me too.
I talked to them, mostly in my crazy cat lady voice but hey, I think they got it. Even if they didn’t I imagined they did, and that in itself calmed me down.
This was my POP
Your point of peace does not have to be anything grand. It can be the weightlessness of floating in the tub for a few moments. The mindlessness of reading that celebrity magazine you splurged on after a stressful day, or diving into to the depths of a good book, if even for a few pages. It can be ice cream satisfaction feels or the “ahhh” sigh with that first sip of coffee.
Or, it can be butterfly feels.